INDIFFERENT

So that's it.






What's next?

STRIKE.

Disaster strikes again. And this time it strikes really hard. How devastating, how heartbreaking... typhoon Ondoy hit us so bad.

I was always just an outsider... an onlooker. I only ever see the aftermath of a storm in the news... the flood, the people crammed in evacuation centers, cars getting stuck, children playing in the flood water... all those were just seen on TV. I watched the news earlier today here in the comforts of my parent's home and saw the same thing... each picture more devastating than the next. My heart went out to all the victims.

Then... I saw our own barangay featured on the news, too. The exact street that I walk on on the way home... except now, I can't see the road. Our neighborhood is flooded and so is our home. It's not half as bad as what the other families are going through but we are directly affected, too. I am no longer an outsider or an onlooker.

I am sad and worried because my dog, Duke, is there... left to the care of our neighbors. And our neighbors, our kind neighbors, are stuck there too.

With a threat of another storm coming in, I made a plan to go back there and bring some food and water to them and to get some of our things too, just in case. I'd want to bring my dog along too but I don't know how and where to take him. I will also need help but I don't know yet where to get it. I can only pray that God will spare all of us further grief... we have all been through so much already. I don't know how much more we can take. Please, dear Lord, help us...

deliberate?

It's like

you

p l u c k e d

me

out of your

tree.






It hurts.

SURRENDER

I do not know what to do or where to go from here,
I do not know what I am waiting for or praying for anymore.
I only know that I trust you, Lord, and that you know what's best for me.
Take me where I am meant to go,
where I will grow and be the person I am meant to become.
Help me to embrace the uncertainties, dear God, and keep my faith.
In my heart I know, I will find myself one day
in a place that You have prepared for me.



"Don't worry you will find the answer if you let it go
Give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo know that you're loved no matter what
And everything will come around in time..."

ORIGINALITY... OVERRATED?

I am once again caught up in watching a TV series. Last night, I continued with my Gilmore Girls Season 2 marathon... I only stopped when my eyes and head started to hurt. I slept at around 4 in the morning and woke up at 12 noon. Been that way for 2 days now. Haha.

It's amazing how easily we can get caught up in watching things like these... how easily they can turn into an addiction. I remember the first "series" I religiously watched when I was younger... it was Marimar. Yes, the original version that stars Thalia. I started to watch it because my playmates then promptly stopped our play times at 6 in the evening because they wanted to catch their favorite soap opera. So I decided to check it out for myself to see what's taking away a few more minutes of my play time. And so I got hooked... along with my family. We only had one TV, you see... so they really had no choice but to watch it with me. After that came Maria la del Barrio, Rosalinda, Ruby and what not. After the boom of Mexican telenovelas Koreanovelas. Jumpstarting it was the ever famous Meteor Garden. I got hooked on that, too... along with millions of Filipinos. Looking back on it now makes me realize how much of a sucker I was. I also got hooked on the original version of My Girl. I keep saying "the original version" because nowadays, it seems that all the networks ever seem to do is make an adaptation of old koreanovelas and other telenovelas. I mean, what's the big idea? Or do they even have ideas anymore? Because it certainly seems like they don't. What amazes me more is how the viewers easily get hooked on the bait even if they already know how the story would play out. Minsan nga hindi na makatotohanan at talagang pinapahaba na lang kasi maraming nanonood. I'm just wondering where the writers are with brilliant and creative minds. I am a Mass Communication graduate in a well-established institution and we were not educated to follow the trend or to do something that's already been done. We were taught to think out of the box and come up with ideas that are purely our own. I just hope the time will come again when we will see authentic stories on primetime television again.

Until then, I will be watching my much preffered TV series on DVD while others watch the nth remake of Darna. Who knows, maybe the time will come when she won't have to swallow a stone anymore.

THANK YOU

"In my day, something just was. None of this analysis a hundred times over. None of these college courses with people graduating with degrees in Whys and Hows and Becauses. Sometimes, love, you just need to forget all those words and enroll in a little lesson called, "Thank You"."

23rd year begins

I am spending the first day of my 23rd year at home doing practically nothing. It's a holiday, by the way. I am still overflowing with joy as I think about how I spent my birthday... I didn't expect it to be how it turned out though the celebration was simple.

I went to my family's house to have lunch then we went to the mall. We strolled around a bit then had dinner. I was so pleased because I saw some friends too, I haven't them seen in a while. I'm glad that I was able to spend time with my whole family because we rarely do so these days. Ang saya talaga :)

Afterwards, my friends (the bestest!) picked me up and we went out for coffee. It's a weekend habit, really, but it was fun all the same. I had such a great time especially because my partner was making a fool out of herself and making us laugh to tears. Such good times.

Ang saya saya ko talaga :) It was a birthday well spent.

Oh well. It's another year for me. I wonder what's in store. I am quite excited :)