So I've been reading my secret idol's blog entries from about 7 years ago. It's amazing how she was able to keep it updated for the last 7 or 8 years. What's really nice about it is that you can really see how much she's changed and matured over the years, even her style of writing changed a bit. I wonder, I know this is a long shot but if I ever get to meet her and talk to her, feeling ko I'd learn so much from her. At feeling ko magiging contest ng padaldalan yun. Ang saya diba? And nakakatuwa coz I found out we have some things in common like she also loves plucking her eyebrows (I dunno if she still does that now, maybe someone plucks them for her) and.. and... that's all I remember. Haha! Basta I realized I see some of myself in her. Some lang naman.
In a way I kinda envy her coz even if she also went through that stage of not knowing what you really want to be or what you really want to do, she still ended up going after her dreams. At napaka-amazing nun para sa isang taong katulad ko na hindi alam kung ano talaga ang gusto. I know for sure I don't want to stay in this industry but then I'm having a hard time deciding kasi nga I don't know what I really want to do. What am I passionate about? What do I find most fulfilling? What are my strengths? Where do I see myself succeeding? It's so hard, feeling ko puro kaartehan lang kasi ang naiisip ko kaya ganun.
Sino'ng hindi dumaan sa "quarter life crisis"? Galing galing naman.
Oh, you probably noticed my style of writing kind of changed, naging taglish masyado. Pardon me, nagpapaka-secret idol mode ako. Just for today.
