DAY 1.

Yesterday was bittersweet. We spent the day like we haven't for the longest time. It was too easy to let everything slip away when she's around.

I slept so soundly in her arms... but inevitably, morning came and with it, the beginning of an end.

I wish there was someway we can skip this part and move on. But I know we have to go through this if we really want to be better for each other. I thought I was okay about this, that somehow this is just a phase and I'm trusting that we'll be back together. But each moment is close to being unbearable because I know that deep down I just want to move on, forget about everything and be with her. But how can I when every time I am alone I remember things so vividly and I feel my heart breaking each time?

I know I need to give myself some time to heal and think things through. I need to hate what she did a little more... then maybe in time, I can finally look at her and just fall in love again, nothing less.

What hurts more is how much I want to give her a chance and yet my friends just can't... at least not yet. I may feel that it's a bit unfair but then I cannot dictate how they'd react and feel. Maybe, just maybe... in time.



I miss you every moment we're apart, Alex.