SEEING RED.

Do you still remember the first time you fell in love?
Do you still remember that first smile you shared, that first time you locked eyes with each other?
Do you still remember the rush you felt the first time you held hands?


Lately, I've been thinking about these feelings.. what most people would probably describe as feelings that you felt back when you were in high school, when you were a bit more naive than you realize, when everything was sunshine and rainbow, when you didn't know yet what being heartbroken really meant. Admit it, you were once like that too. I know I was.


As a young girl, I was a sucker for anything romantic. I loved watching movies that make me giggle and blush. I loved watching couples as they gazed into each other's eyes, as if everything else around them suddenly slipped away and all that mattered was that moment. Oh yes, I believed and hoped that one day I, too, will have a moment of my own.


True enough, I had them. "Them" being the operative word, I assume you realize that I've had a fair share of these moments... and with different people. Each one was special in it's own way and the intensity of the feelings were different on so many levels as well but there are a few that really stand out. It still makes me smile every time I remember them. These moments and the people I shared them with will, cliche as this may sound, always be treasured.


But I'm no longer that young girl... I'm 24 and not living in a dream world anymore. Here, it isn't always sunshine and rainbow. Here, tears are more real, affairs happen, love may not be reciprocated, trust is broken and lies are told. See, these are the things that sometimes make people stop believing in love. But me, I've been through hell and back but still, I believe in those magical moments.


It's true that you might not always get a rush everytime you see that one person... you might not feel so giggly each time that someone tells you how beautiful you are... you might not always remember how it feels like everytime you hold hands or look each other in the eye... you might argue once in a while and ignore each other... but I guess what really counts are those moments when you do feel your heart flutter at just the most fleeting touch of that person's hand... those moments when you're simply left breathless by those sweet, unexpected kisses... those moments when you catch the corner of your lips lifting up into a familiar smile that turns into a giggle just because you see that one person. They don't happen all the time, every single day... but they do happen.

And when it does, hold on to it.