CLICHE.

I can never maintain a blogsite. Ever, I think. I keep trying to but I end up not having anything to write about. Which is really sad because it simply means that there isn't anything worth writing about. Or maybe, I'm just overlooking them.


Let me just try and write about the things that's been keeping my mind occupied lately. Let's see...


# 1 Everything MAKEUP.
Makeup tools. Makeup books. Makeup videos online. Makeup school. Makeup. Makeup. Makeup. Lately, it's all I ever think about! As in it literally consumes my thoughts whenever I have some quiet time to think. I'm not sure how and when all this interest started but I'm so happy I entertained the idea. My family and closest friends would definitely describe me as someone who's "maarte"--and I know I am! I'm not ashamed of it because I know I'm not the annoying type. It's just who and how I am. Being the maarte person that I am, I guess it's not surprising how I came to have this much interest in makeup artistry. I've recently started building up my tools and so now I have a modest number of brushes, eyeshadows, blushes, foundation and other stuff--just some basics that I can practice with. I've also attended one makeup workshop courtesy of my good friend and kumare, Mic. Also, I've been watching a lot of videos that I get so many useful tips from and just yesterday, I bought myself a book--the Bobbi Brown Makeup Manual and I absolutely love it! I've also been thinking of enrolling myself in makeup school (Yes, I'm THAT serious.) but since it's a bit expensive, I have to save up for it first and hopefully, with fingers crossed, I will be able to study the art. 


# 2 My career path.
Oh, it's no secret that I've been thinking about quitting my current job and moving on to a job that will enable me to really practice my skills and hopefully, build on a career that I truly want. The problem though is that I can't seem to figure out what it is I want to do. And it's really, really getting me down. It's so hard to be in this place... to be doing something simply because I don't have any other choice for now and to want to change what it is that's making me unhappy but I can't seem to make myself take that first step because I don't know where to plant that first step. Di'ba ang hirap? I'm so envious of people who know exactly what it is that they want to do. Dahil ba ang dami kong gustong gawin sa buhay ko kaya hindi ko maisip kung alin dun yung talagang gusto ko? O talaga lang na hindi ko pa lubos na kilala ang sarili ko para malaman kung ano yung passion ko? Hay! It's so hard. I am so scared to try and apply for other jobs kasi ayokong mapa-subo lang ulit--I don't want to settle for something just because it's what's available. AS in if you ask me now what I want, I'd just give you a blank stare. I'm that lost. And I need help so badly.


# 3 Hosting gigs.
I am an amateur host but I really love it when I do get to host an event! The last time I had a hosting gig, I had so much fun that I forgot I was getting paid for it that when I was finally paid, I was so ecstatic that I realized it's something I could do for free. As in! There is so much I need to learn and improve about myself when it comes to this and I'm all too willing to expose myself to new experiences if only to hone the talent that I'm given. I am hoping to get one gig this February for a wedding--sana it will push through. And I'm praying for more opportunities like that.. malay natin, andun pala ang future ko, who knows? 


For now, I think that's about it. I guess I am in this stage in my life when I'm trying to discover who I really am. Simply put, I am going through a quarter life crisis. And it's so challenging. But like I always say, there are no shortcuts. I'd like to end this on a positive note so let me just remind myself that, like everything else, this too shall pass.


And tomorrow is another day.